Friday, July 14, 2006
is twe really going to die? do the members really dislike band that much? where did all the passion go to?
mr glosz came for band today. when he found the sec 1 cornets unable to play freedom's march( the very first song they got for JBF ), and that they cld not play their B flat scale, he was real mad.
he went to see the principal and tell her that. then he told us, he's considering leaving our band.
the band's attendance isn't what u call good, great or even okay. its horrible. the sec ones dont seem to be able to appreciate band at all. they skip band instead.
irresponsible. since they're in band, y don't they just happily come for band practices?
i admit, i wanted to join band in sec 1. but after the first few practices, which weren't practices bcos the seniors were practising for syf, we didn't want to go for band at all. we dreaded them. we dreamt of skipping practices.
there wasn't really much that we could do... i hardly even knew the sec fours last year. i didn't even know who was the student conductor. i didn't know it was xingwen. we were left quite alone, spending time with the sec 2s last year.
now, the sec 1's get all the love and care.. and do they give a damn? NO.
they take advantage of it, they don't value it at all. some even bully their seniors. what kind of attitude is this? when i was in sec 1, i swear i was afraid of my own seniors. i hardly even knew them.
i think, they should just accept the fact that they are in band, and it's about making beautiful music that reaches out to the people out there. not about skipping band practices and go play games, play at the playground or just go home and sleep. they are just so...
we spent most of our time today just talking and listening to mr glosz tell us about what we can do to try and save twe. i usually can't wait for band practices, but today, it just didn't feel right. i didn't have the motivation to go for band. and today in band, it wasn't much fun.
usually i'll wait anxiously for band to start, and leave happily and contented. today, i left band feeling dead. mr glosz's words kinda showed us some things we've never really noticed.
im still feeling down. i don't want the band to die, i don't want the music made to not sound like music and i want to help my juniors.
my juniors are good, except for one or two who don't appreciate band and usually skips practices. i'm proud of them. as long as they work hard and have the passion, i don't see why i shouldn't be nice to them.
i treat them well bcos i know how it feels like to come for band and ur seniors don't talk to u at all and they look at u as though ur an outsider. i know how it feels like to see ur sec 4s leave (last year) and u just feel nothing bcos u've like, only seen them a few times. you hardly heard them play, u nv spend time with them. i treat my juniors well bcos i want them to feel comfortable in band.
im nice, they're nice. we get along so its nice. just a few that im not close with.
they look at the clarinet/bass clarinet and feel happy. they play songs together. once a song is played finish, they play another. then when all songs are done, they play all of them again and again and again. it's not what we juniors used to do last time, so i really envy them.
i find the other juniors getting out of hand.
today, my friend was talking about ccas. i told them, in band, you're emotionally challenged. i think that's the word u use to describe what i'm thinking of.
u want people around u to enjoy what your playing and compliment you. but, if they were to just look at us and talk among themselves, with an expression that they don't find us up to standard. it just make us feel less confident.
if u were to play the clarinet badly and u lie to urself that u are a bad player, you're never gonna stay in band. they think they're bad, then they don't come for band in case they get embarrassed, then they don't practise, they don't practise they get worse. then they can't take it and they quit.
if u thought that you played badly, u would feel embarrassed that someone would say something bad behind you. its just quite normal. if the conductor insults you, and then that'll be the last straw. you'll feel unwanted.
i would rather watch a band of males play than a band of girls or mixed. i don't know why but it just gives a professional impression. but i just don't agree that mr glosz should say that girls play worse than guys. i know its true but he keeps on saying it, it just insults us girls.
he said it. he said that girls are girly and its natural. then? why force us to be something we're not? i mean, we try. then just let us try. we try, then u still say that we're too gentle, then we try somemore and u still say we're too gentle, then what do u want us to be? king kong? if u were to keep on saying us.. we would lose our temper too. u lose ur temper, we lose our temper. in fact we'd lose our minds.
sexist. i hate people who are sexist towards girls. why must it be that a conductor must be a man? i can accept the fact that we should play as a man. but why isit that no one likes to watch a female conduct?
a female can be as good as a male. some at least.
'We Women Live In A MAN's World.' that's what mr glosz said. well, guys dont forget, ur living in a woman's world too. WE SHARE THIS WORLD. of cos unless u want all of us females to leave the world and ur can become gay for all i care.
why isit that a guy is always said to be better than girls? we're all the same, human. its just that we have different interests that separates us to girly and manly.
mr glosz said he only wants son, not daughter. hmm. ok.. then why don't the whole world bcome like this once more? everybody would abort their baby if it was a girl. i don't mind the world bcoming gay if this is what every guy wants.
if a woman's life is to just take care of families and always walks behind her husband, then this world is stupid.
women: not given enough respect from males. not given enough trust from males to do things.
most of the boys in my class are always thinking : hey, im the boy, and your the girl. so IM ALWAYS RIGHT. girls are useless.
i've really got nothing to say. but i do hope people won't treat us unfairly just bcos we are females. other that sports, i hope we do get other chances to do as well as boys can. i'd rather not play rugby the real way.
i hope twe would not die. or i'll die with it. i love music and band gives me chances to enjoy what i love, and friends that i want to be friends with. i don't see why people have to think of band as such a dreadful thing.
always a twemasekian `8:52:00 pm
